Saturday, August 27, 2016

MTC bound (again)

It's a familiar site, although this time it's colorful socks, ties, and suits instead of skirts and dresses. In just over a week I will be flying to Utah with Drew to take him to the MTC.  It was almost exactly three years ago in September that we took Sadie there.  You can read about that experience here if you're new to my blog. I decided after taking Sadie to the curb drop off of the MTC three years ago, that I would never, ever do that scene again.  For months I've been telling Drew I would say good-bye to him at the Phoenix airport.  But, circumstances and situations change, and in the end, I decided I needed, to be able to have some closure and peace, do that curb scene one more time.    

It's been a beautiful couple of weeks as Drew had prepared himself to serve his mission in Jackson, Mississippi.  

We have been supported by amazing family and friends, for which we are tremendously grateful.  

Last weekend we got to have a quick visit from Sadie and Andy. 

Last Sunday we also had our last family dinner together for two years.  I made all of Drew's favorites, roast beef, mashed potatoes, corn, and orange rolls.  Bitter-sweet, but I keep remembering how much Sadie loved her mission to Houston,  and how it helped her grow and love and develop her relationship with her Heavenly Father in a way that she could not have gained through any other experience. 
So, just like I promised Sadie, I will also send Drew off with a smile.  I am so incredibly proud of this young man.  He is amazingly kind, and patient, and funny, and most of all, he knows how to love unconditionally.  He makes me want to be a better person.  Thank you Drewby.  Nothing brings me more joy in this world than being a mom to you and your sisters. 
I know you will bless many, many lives as you have the great privilege of serving the people of Jackson, Mississippi. 

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

miles to go

Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening by Robert Frost
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
I believe I first became familiar with this poem during my sophomore year in high school.  I remember my English teacher, a tall women with a pixie haircut (although I can't remember her name) sharing it with our class.   She was a very kind and relaxed person and I remember that I enjoyed her class.  I also remember this poem resonating with me for some reason.  There was something about the quiet scene Frost's words painted in my mind that gave me both a sense of peace and foreboding. 
The last two lines of this poem seem to depict my life right now.  These words echo in my head all the time as I reflect on the very long and difficult journey I still have ahead of me.   Yet, in my mind,  I also still see the woods on this snowy evening.  I see the little horse's breath gather in front of him in smoky, warm clouds.  I feel the heat of the horse radiate and warm me against the bitter cold. I see the snow flakes falling softly, gracefully,  and I feel comfort in the lovely, dark.  

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

And Drew will be serving a mission in...

Jackson, Mississippi!!!

Thanks to all of his amazing friends who showed up to to see Drew open his letter. 

He is so very happy and excited. I know the people of Jackson will love him (almost) as much as I do.
So incredibly proud of this kid. 
So grateful for the amazing privilege of being his mom.  

Sunday, July 24, 2016

summer and waiting by the mail box

California is always so good to us. 

I especially appreciated my time with baby Max.

Happy Birthday America. 

Beach time was also divine.

Jade (Photo credit Sierra) 

And I discovered something this year.  I actually do think Disneyland might just be one of the happiest places on earth. Especially when Gentry and I had a wheelchair pass. #nowaitinginline

My favorite....Gentry was still restricted to minimum walking, but it was really no problem.

The girls will start school in just two weeks.  
And the waiting part of this post? 
On July 12th, in Salt Lake City, Drew was assigned his mission call.  He has been diligently checking the mail for days.  We are hoping it will come this week for sure. 
I promise to post when we find out....
I keep thinking Japan?!
Dang, I am going to miss this kid so much.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

the end of "the flo" and another mission

This was the text I got from Drew last week...

And he was serious, because, as you can see... "the flo" is no more.

But dang, he look good, right?!

Recently Drew made an important decision.   Just like Sadie, he has decided to serve a full time (two year) mission for our church.  Last night he had his final interview and submitted the last of his paper work.  We should know where he's going in two to three weeks.  He's really hoping to go somewhere besides the United States.  My gut is that he's going to be sent somewhere that has some significant challenges...somewhere where he will need to learn a new language.  We'll see.  With everything in my life that has completely blown up recently, this will be another bitter sweet chapter in my motherhood journey.   Sadie still considers her mission to be one of the very best experiences of her life.  It is my hope that Drew's mission will also be amazing. 
Just like he is.  Sometimes I don't even have words to express how much I love these kids of mine.
They are my greatest strength and the reason I keep getting up and trying to move forward each and every day.  

Monday, June 13, 2016


There are some very hard things going on in our family right now.  Things that I won't write about today, but things that I may write about someday. I considered taking a break from blogging, but this little blog is a big part of who I am.  So, I will continue to write.
 Yesterday this song helped me to get out of bed. 

There are times when you might feel aimless
And can't see the places where you belong
But you will find that there is a purpose
It's been there within you all along
And when you're near it you can almost hear it.

It's like a symphony just keep listening
And pretty soon you'll start to figure out your part
Everyone plays a piece in their own melodies
In each one of us, oh, it's glorious

So today I will just keep listening and trusting in God's love for me as I continue to move forward each day.  
There is nothing more glorious to me than the love our Savior has for each and everyone of us. 

Thursday, June 2, 2016

class of 2016

we parked Gentry's walker and had her balance a minute for this one

Congratulations Drewby

How I love this kid